I'm Rubbish...

I've not blogged in ages.....

I've been lazy and the more i haven't blogged the harder it's got to start again.

I've been in a battle with hormones just lately and just keep telling myself it will get better. I've baked LOADS and cake makes me happy, so thats good right?

Anyway it's just a quicky, i have a hen night at the weekend, i'm really looking forward to letting my hair down as the dreamboys will be making an appearance....just for me mind ;)

I will bring photos back with me and i give you my brownies promise i'll be back to ramble :)

Baking :)

Tomorrow is my nephews 10th birthday. I made a cake for my neice in March so Keane wanted me to do him one.
It was an easy decision what i would like to do, it was hard learning i shouldn't try and run before i can walk!!
He's a gorgeous boy and an avid football fan, so their was never any doubt the cake would be football themed!!

This was to be only my 2nd birthday cake i had ever made, i needed lots of look.
I decided to do 2 tiers, i'd done cupcakes for my neice so wanted to do something different for Keane, i decided to do a green bottom and half a football on top.

I have achieved it, you can just tell i'm a beginner!!
On Saturday i thought i'd make a football model in the shape of Keane........EPIC FAIL.
He looked okay but when the cake was made he was just too big to fit on the cake, he's still on the cake, just hidden at the back with no legs or arms....one useless footballer :)

The cake is a Maisie recipe, the bottom tier is chocolate fudge cake with chocolate buttercream icing AND OMG it tastes devine!!
The small top tier is another Maisie recipe but is a vanilla cake with buttercream icingand sandwiched with buttercream and jam and again OMG it tastes devine!!

I hope my nephew likes it, the "grass" is stretched in places and you can tell its an amature jobby but all in all i'm pretty pleased with it, i just hope the birthday boy loves it :)



I hope you like it :)

SE x

Moving On...

So i haven't been on and written anything for while.
I had some sad news, I miscarried our baby, it's been tough and it's been a long process, i don't want to go in to great detail, i need to move forward now.

I've cried and cried but it wont bring my baby back, things like this do happen for a reason and one day i will be a mummy!!

SE x

A whole month!!

Well it's been a whole month since I've updated my blogg, how very rude of me!!

So what have i been up to?

I've had a fabby valentines get a way to New York City, the hubby whisked me away for a week, was lovely to get away and we were lucky enough to get some nice weather. It wasn't freezing cold but i did need my coat, scarf & gloves but that was perfect for me. We went in June 2010, it was sweltering hot and i just couldn't cope with the weather, the brisk wind on my cheeks was so much better.

We decided not to do so much touristy stuff as we had been just 18 months ago and me also being pregnant didn't want to wear myself out. We visited Brooklyn bridge, we walked across it taking pictures and watching the world go by, we had wonderful views from the bridge and could just about see ground zero being built up, it was a foggy wet day and unfortunately we couldn't see the statue of liberty from the bridge but i reckon you would be able to on a clear day.

We went back to Grand Central Station, the place is just amazing!! I was quite disappointed to find out they had put an Apple shop in though, there's a massive Apple shop on 5th Avenue near central parc so this one is not needed and not wanted in my case!! The building itself is beautiful, the ceiling is amazing and i had an over whelming feeling of just wanting to lie in the middle of the floor, I'm not sure commuters would have appreciated that though so i did refrain ;)

We did a phenomenal amount of shopping but my gorgeous husband would only let me spend my money on me, i bought lots of clothes, make-up a hand bag and some uggs, i was attracted very much to Tiffany's but husband had bought me a Tiffany's necklace for christmas and i think that's all the Tiffany's treasure i need for now.

My favourite place in NYC is central parc, its just beautiful and  think i could walk around it all day although we just spent the morning there, i was getting really tired from the long days but we went where i wanted to see. The place is soooo big, i love watching the walkers/cyclists/joggers just pass by, putting my fitness level to shame but hey i was on holiday!!

All in all we had yet another fabulous trip to the big apple, we've decided on holidays in the UK for the next few years now, we haven't been to Cornwall or Devon and i would like to visit both at some point so with a small baby to pack for as well as me, I'm happy with that.

As for the pregnancy i think all is well, I'm all booked in and i have my scan in 8 days, its been along time coming but I'm more than looking forward to it, I've had no sickness at all and barely any symptoms, so lets just hope I'm a lucky one.

11+4 as the clock strikes midnight xx

Big (.)(.)'s

So it's been a week or so, I'm 7+4 (as the clock strikes midnight) and i have HUGE boobs!! Now I'm blessed in that department anyway and have always had a generous size but OMG they have doubled in size, over exaggeration i guess but blooming hell they are big, they hurt a lot too but i must be thankful as at the minute this is the only symptom i have, if i had silly periods like some people do i wouldn't know i was pregnant!!

I have put on weight too which i am really unhappy about but i know its my own fault, i haven't quite watched what i have eaten but i have been really hungry and i don't want to deprive myself at this stage, if my body tells me i need food i eat, simple.

I'm booked in for a flu jab tomorrow, there's been a bit of a hoohar about it because of the swine flu and i wasn't sure what to do for the best but i have decided to go for it, what will be will be.

I'm ever so tired at the moment too and i think i find it hard with working nights, it gets to about 3am and i just need to lie down but i do manage on the job I'm doing now, not sure how long it will last though.
I can't wait till i can give up work for 1 whole year, i feel bad about being happy about it so soon and i sometimes think karma will catch up with me and something bad will happen, in fact now i have wrote it down.........stoopid i know but i do consider myself a lucky person so I'm expecting one day it will catch up with me..!!

I've been quite hormonal just lately too, i suppose that's another symptom, i just want to cry some days and i have done, buckets for no reason at all, silly bugger!

I'm finding it hard not telling people, so so hard but i know its for the best, i don't want to jump the gun and karma be there waiting for me, i have my booking in appointment on the 13th Feb so only 1 more week to go then i think i will get my scan through, its quite hard the first trimester as its all just waiting around till you hit the 12 week mark. We will get there :)

Husband is being mostly good, mostly I'm saying loosely...I wish he would cook a decent meal and NOT want takeaway all the time, if he mentions it that's when i start to think...oooooo, its wrong though and i need to make the right choices as my baby is eating what i eat, SO big changes from tomorrow, I'm following SLIMMING WORLD!!

I shall update through the week how i go, my fingers and toes are crossed for myself!!

SE xx

5+3

Thats how many days pregnant i am.
I'm still in shock to say the least and still trying to get my head around it, but i'm really really happy and so is the husband :)

I've bought 3 books to help us on our way, i've started writing down our favourite names and i've already been looking at prams....My god its like a mine field!!

I visited the doctor on thursday to tell them so now i am waiting for a midwife to call me so they can book me in. I know its very early days yet and anything can happen but my mantra is to be positive. I don't have many symptoms yet apart from really sore boobs and a bit of acne, i want to feel sick because i know thats a good sign but all in good time i'm sure it will appear!!

I actually feel like a fraud at the minute, thinking or saying "I'm pregnant" as i don't feel it but i suppose i should be making the most of my time now.

One thing i'm not liking is the lying i have to do to my friends, I'm finding it quiet difficult but equally i know its for the best. I don't want anyone to know yet just incase, part of me feels like if anything did go wrong i would have a good support network but again i don't want everyone knowing yet, i don't want the questions and i think this should be the husbands and my time now to just enjoy the excitement we have.

Aside from the baby i have been eating terrible, i'm not sleeping very well so because i work nights i'm up for longer and needing more food, so from tomorrow i'm on an eating healthy regime and thats a pinky promise :)

SE x

Going to plan?

Sooooo....dieting, thats how i started off on monday hey?

I've eaten like a horse, i've tried to be good but its simply not working, Why i hear you ask?? I just found out i'm PREGNANT!!!

For the past couple of weeks i've been coming home from work (i work nights) and as soon as my head has hit the pillow, i've fallen asleep. Though before i've gotton into bed i've had a mad dash to the kitchen as i have been sooo hungry, i tried working into my points but too much bread doesn't help me, even if it is brown.

Sooo i haven't fallen off the dieting wagon cause i have an excuse right?? *nods*

I will try harder, this is our first baby and i don't want to put weight on for the sake of putting weight on and i wont be eating cream cakes because "im eating for 2" (which isn't true) but i will have to listen to my body now, if it needs something it wil have to have it, i think i might try grazing, little and often.

My fingers are crossed for a sticky baby, its very early days yet but for now i can certainly feel that there is something there :)

SE xx

The last supper?

Tomorrow i embark on losing weight....again!! This happens several times a year, I lose weight then take time out because i got bored, put weight back on, feel crap, cry a lot then start the whole vicious circle again.

I know I'm not the only one, most women are the same, especially this time of year. It's not a resolution of mine though i think it's just a lifetime ambition......very sad i know.

The thing is, if i didn't carry out this trend of dieting i have going I'm sure i would be a lot more overweight, i do try and watch what i eat, fruit and veg are daily consumptions but weekends its a free for all and take aways, fast food or meals out break my dieting habit.

It's not all my fault, i blame the husband. Okay he doesn't hold a gun to my head and make me eat dominoes pizza (his favourite but the most calories) but he constantly asks "shale we have a pizza/Chinese/curry" you name it he's asked for it, the amount of shouting, crying and reasoning i have tried to do to make him see but it just doesn't sink in. Memory span of a fish i say.

If i counted the amount of LBS i had actually lost over the years i swear i would have been at target 5 times over but that would be cheating because LBS creep on so easily.

I'm going to start with 14lbs and see how i go,  i have to admit I'm not the most strictest of dieters and i rarely exercise but i know what my body can take and how my body deals with food. If i manage to lose 14lbs i would be the lightest i can ever remember and it would bring my BMI into the healthy range plus it make me more healthy for babies though i''l leave that can of worms for another time.

I'm sat here eating haribo and drinking a J20 so that's it, tomorrow i will be following the weight watchers plan.

I'm ready for it, i can do it.

Watch this space ;)

SE x

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year, well it will be and I mean it!
This is probably my 3rd attempt at blogging in my life, the other times I *forgot* to write so i'm hoping this time is different, New Year, New Me??..lol

I've always wanted to blogg but i don't really know what to say, i'm a secret blogg reader and love the way some write, unfortunately i'm neither the best writer in the world or witty so will just write on as myself.

I'm sat here listening to the gale that's blowing out side, i'd like to say in the warmth of my house but i'm fecking freezing, the heaters on and i've had my 2nd brew of the day (i really need to cut down though) sooo need to warm up, I just don't want to move!

I'm not entirely sure where a blogg will take me, I want to be completely honest in it but then what if someone reads and i offend them? I'm the kinda girl that says it how it is........it's not always the best policy though you now where you stand with me.

I have a million and 1 things i'd like to write about but don't know where to start so in my wisdom i'll write a list. I haven't made any New Years Resolutions this year, i never stick to them so whats the point? I have some goals though.

1) Make babies
2) To lose 14lbs

Okay so not ground breaking but thats a start right?

I will divulge more but for now thats me.
Do you have goals?

SE